Look into your own being and seek it not through others. Your own mind is above all forms; it is free and quiet and sufficient...The word "zen", by the way, simply means "meditation". It comes from the Sanskrit word for meditation which is "dhyana". That was transliterated by the Chinese as "ch'an", which then became the Japanese word, "zen".
Another passage Suzuki's book goes like this:
The basic idea of Zen is to come in touch with the inner workings of our being, and to do this in the most direct way possible, without resorting to anything external or superadded.And here's still another:
Personal experience, therefore, is everything in Zen. No ideas are intelligible to those who have no backing of experience.So this is where we remind ourselves to practice, practice, practice! Experience comes through experiencing - not through analyzing concepts. So, just sit. Let your mind be what it is without judgment. Let it be okay that you experience what you experience and then give yourself permission to let go.
Now here's the great paradox: It's important not to be attached to benefits of meditation and yet, if we meditate, the benefits will come. Don't try to solve this paradox. Just appreciate it and then practice! Through the sitting itself (and by accepting what happens when you sit) you will gain the insight that you need.