And so I thought I'd offer you a quote of the Buddha on this same subject. I've always loved his affirmation of reason and I hope you find it strengthening and consoling:
Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it.
Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations.
Do not believe in anything because it is spoken and rumored by many.
Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders.
But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason, and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.
I would also remind you of that great slogan from The Seven Points of Mind Training: "Liberate yourself by examining and investigating."